Wednesday, August 28, 2002

Alissa Has Arrived!

Alissa was born on August 13, 2002.  She weighed 6 lbs 3 ozs and was 19 inches long.  She is the most beautiful little girl in the whole world!  She has a head full of hair.  Her hair is so thick it is amazing to me.  She was born 5 weeks early.  Here's the story:
On Friday, August 9th, roger and I traveled to salt Lake to go to a Huffaker family reunion.  There was a barbecue, skits, and a lot of visiting and playing games.  After it was over, we went to Linda's house to spend the night.  I hardly got any sleep.  I was so uncomfortable.  roger and I got out of bed at around 7:30am.  I woke up feeling a little bit of pain in both of my sides.  I wasn't worried about it, I just assumed it was because we were in a different bed and I had such a hard time getting comfortable.  so we got ready for the day and headed to McDonalds for breakfast before going to the Joseph Smith Memorial Building to meet Roger's family and watch 'The Testament'.  By the time we got there the pain in my sides had spread to my back and stomach.  I was not very comfortable.  I thought that maybe something was not normal, so I asked Cindi (Roger's sister who is a Midwife) what she thought.  She told me that I could be having those pains from not sleeping well.  so, she pretty much just confirmed what I had been thinking.  By the time we sat down to watch the movie, the pain had grown and was becoming unbearable.  I asked Roger to take me back to Linda's house so that I could try and sleep and hopefully the pain would go away.  So, Roger took me to Linda's.  I tried to sleep while Roger headed back to the reunion.  They were having a picnic at a park.  I couldn't get to sleep and the pain continued to get worse.  I called Roger and asked him to come and take me to the hospital - I was sure that something was wrong.  We went to the Cottonwood Hospital.  They checked me out and ran some tests.  They said that I was not in labor and they couldn't find any reason for the pain I was having.  We were there for an hour, then they sent us home and told us to come back if the pain got worse.  It was not very long before the pain got worse and we were back at the hospital.  We spent the rest of the day at the hospital.  They did a ton of tests, trying to figure out what was wrong.  They even did an ultra sound and looked around trying to figure out what could be causing me so much pain.  They couldn't find anything.  Sometime in between 9:00 and 10:00pm they gave me some pain medicine and sent me home with instructions to go to the emergency room in Brigham City first thing in the morning.  While we were at the Cottonwood Hospital, Cindi and her kids came to visit.  Cindi decided to send Becca (Roger's 14 year old niece) home with us, so she could help take care of me.  She was very helpful and it was so nice to have her there with us.  I was in so much pain that I couldn't do anything.  Roger had to help me get dressed, go to the bathroom, get up and down, roll over in bed, and sometimes walk.  It was excruciatingly painful to move any muscle in my body.  It was miserable!
The next morning, Sunday, August 11th, we woke up and went to the Brigham City Hospital.  That was the day that Roger's mom was having her farewell.  I was supposed to be there and sing a song with Roger's sister, Caroline.  Jeanne ended up singing with her instead.
We ended up spending the whole day at the Brigham City Hospital.  They could not figure out what was wrong.  At the end of the day, they gave me the choice to go home and sleep in my bed or sleep there.  Of course, I chose to go home and sleep in my bad.  Dr. Wilding wanted us to come to his office first thing in the morning.  So we went home, slept, then went to his office first thing in the morning.  While we were in the waiting room, the pain was so unbearable.  I couldn't sit anymore, it hurt so bad.  I got up and walked over to Roger for some love and support.  Roger says that I walked toward him and pretty much collapsed into his arms.  It scared him so bad that he started yelling for help and demanded that they get me in a room right now.  Dr. Wilding could not figure out what was wrong.  He said he had never seen anything like this in the 30 years that he has been a doctor.  He knew something was seriously wrong, so he spent the morning trying to get an appointment for me to see a specialist in Ogden.  The doctor was booked and insisted that he couldn't see me.  Dr. Wilding wouldn't give up.  He fought to get me in there.  He knew that I was dying and something had to be done as soon as possible.  He got me an appointment with the specialist, Dr. Smithing, in Ogden at 2:00pm.  Dr. Smithing checked me out and said that he didn't know what was wrong with me, but I was too sick to go home, so he wanted Roger to drive me over to Mckay Dee Hospital and get me checked in.  Roger went out to get the car.  He drove out in front, then came inside to wheel me out to the car in a wheel chair.  When he went to open the car door, he realized that he had locked the keys in the car with the engine running.  Luckily I had a security system installed that made it possible to unlock the doors by calling a number.  It took us a while to remember the number.  But eventually we did.  We hurried over to Mckay Dee Hospital and got me checked in.
It was Monday afternoon when I got admitted to Mckay Dee.  Dr. Smithing called two other specialists to come and look at me also.  On Tuesday, August 13, 2002 at 11:00 am, the doctors came in and explained that they could not figure out what was wrong with me.  They kind of think it might be my appendix, but they really weren't sure.  They explained that if they were right and it was my appendix, they need to remove it right away.  They told me that they needed to do surgery right away and get the baby out and my appendix out. They were going to remove my appendix, even if it wasn't the problem.  then they would look around and try to figure out what the problem was.  So they quickly got me ready and rushed me into surgery.  I was so scared!  They were wheeling me down the hall and roger was following, but by the time we got to the operating room, Roger was gone.  The operating room looked so scary!  I was so nervous and was feeling especially upset that Roger wasn't there and they hadn't let me say "good-bye" to him.  After they got me on the operating table, roger came in.  I was so relieved to see him.  I was so scared because I had no idea what to expect.  Roger got to sit next to me and hold my hand the whole time.  I was shaking uncontrollably.  The shaking didn't stop until 3 hours after the surgery.  They gave me an epidural while they did the surgery, so I was awake the whole time.  It was so weird not being able to feel anything below my arms.  My arms were even getting a little numb.  It didn't take too long after they started for them too get Alissa out.  They held her up for Roger and I to see.  She was crying and kicking her arms and legs.  Then they rushed her off to the NICU.  It was so exciting to see her and I wished I could have held her, but they still had to take my appendix out and make sure Alissa was okay.  Roger could have watched the surgery, but he was afraid that he would pass out or something.  He looked every once in a while, but he didn't watch for very long.  Now roger can say that he had seen my insides.  He jokes that I am not beautiful on the inside.
It turns out that it was my appendix that was the problem.  The reason that it had been so hard for them to tell what was wrong with me was that my appendix was in an unusual spot.  It had been pushed to my back and was being bent from the pregnancy.  One of the ways that they were able to guess that it was my appendix was when they gave me the pain medication, it didn't eliminate the pain, it just localized the pain to my right side.  anyways, It turns out that my appendix had ruptured, but an abscess had grown around it and contained all of the poisons from spreading through my body.  After they delivered Alissa and started to take my appendix out, the abscess ruptured.  They removed it and had to spend a long time suctioning all of the poisons out of my body.  Roger was amazed at how much stuff they cleaned out of my system.  Alissa and I were very blessed.  Both of us could have died if things didn't work out the way they did.  After the surgery, it was very uncomfortable not being able to feel my legs,  I kept trying to move them, until I barely got my right toes to move slightly.  I was so excited when I could move my whole foot.  When they wheeled me out into the hall to take me to go see Alissa, and we passed all of my family and friends, I told everybody to look what I could do, and I pointed to my feet while I wiggled them back and forth.  Everybody thought that was funny.
I was still shaking pretty badly when they took me to see Alissa.  she was hooked up to a ton of machines and she was in an incubator.  I reached my hand in to touch her and tell her that I love her.  My voice was shaking just as much as my arms were.  roger said from the way alissa acted she knew that it was her mom talking to her.  He thought it was really cute. I had to stay in the hospital for one week and Alissa had to stay there for two weeks.  Alissa's lungs weren't fully developed.
The first week after she was born, it was hard for me to go and see her, because I was hooked up to the I.V. and my feet were swollen.  While I was in the hospital, I saw her once or twice a day.  After I got out of the hospital, I visited her twice a day.  It was the hardest thing for me to leave her at the hospital.  I cried so much.  It was really hard on Roger and I. My emotions were so out of control during that time.  I could not be alone.  I would have a panic attack every time I was left alone.  It was so crazy.  I called my parents and asked them to come and stay with me as much as they could.  My mom understood how I was feeling so they came the next day.  My mom helped me a lot.  She understands what I'm feeling and we cry about it together.
It was such a happy day when we finally got to bring her home. It was also a little scary, realizing that we are in charge of taking care of this precious human being.  That was overwhelming.
Here are some of the videos I took: August 15thAugust 21stAugust 22ndAugust 28th.












Friday, August 2, 2002

Meeting With The Lawyers - August 2, 2002

Friday - August 2nd
Roger and I went to Salt Lake today.  We saw the lawyers and worked out a payment plan.  We don't have to pay nearly as much as before.  Now all we owe is a little over $600.00.  Roger's mom called them before and told them what she thought of the whole situation.  so, they were afraid of us.  We could tell they were really nervous when we came in.  Anyway, I'm really glad that we got that all worked out and I'm really glad that Roger's mom has the knowledge she does about this stuff and that she was able to help us out.
WE went to Babies-R-Us today.  It was so fun!  We bought 3 outfits and a car seat.  I'm so excited for Alissa to be born.  I love all of the cute baby stuff that we are getting.  I can't wait to hold Alissa in my arms.  We need to go back to Salt Lake when we get more money and buy the stroller that goes with her car seat.
My legs, feet, hands, and arms have been really sore.  I don't know how to describe the pain, but it does not feel good.  They were hurting really bad last night when I was trying to sleep.  I was not sure what was causing the pain, but I think it is from over working myself.  I get tired and short of breath when I do a lot of things.  I usually try to work through it so I can get whatever I am doing done.  Today, I sat down and rested as soon as that feeling came on.  It was annoying because it took so much longer for me to get things done.  But it helped a lot.  I feel so much better tonight than I have in the past.  My hands, arms, legs, and feet aren't hurting tonight, just the regular baby kicking and lower abdomen pains.  So, that's good.

Thursday, August 1, 2002

I Made a Successful Dinner - August 1, 2002

Thursday - August 1st
Roger and I slept regular hours last night.  It feels nice to be on a more normal sleeping schedule.  So, I've been cooking meals for Roger finally.  Cooking is something that I'm not used to doing.  I always planned on cooking meals for my husband but it wasn't as easy as I thought it would be.  I've had a hard time trying to figure out how to be a good cook and to get all the right things when I go grocery shopping.  I'm finally starting to get the hang of things.  Tonight we ate Creamy chicken and Asparagus.  It turned out really well.
I have been having a lot of pains today.  Me feet are killing me.  They are just throbbing.  My feet and legs are the source of most of my pains today.  The other pains are lower abdomen pain every once in a while and the pain when the baby moves (she presses really hard against my stomach and insides).  After dinner, roger cleaned the table for me while I went and soaked in a nice warm bath.  He has been very good to me.  He's been doing his best to pamper and take care of me lately and I love it.  He is an amazing husband.  He has some friends (Tyson and some other guy) over right now and they are playing his new hockey game on the Playstation 2.  Roger really gets into his games (especially hockey).
Tomorrow we are going to Salt Lake City to meet with some lawyers and try to figure out a problem and make a payment plan for a mistake I made before Roger and I got married.  While Roger and I were dating, I lived with a friend from High school, Emily Evans.  We lived together for about 3 months.  I was nervous about moving in with her since we weren't that good of friends.  She really needed a roommate.  I couldn't afford something expensive, but she convinced me to move in anyway.  She told me that she would pay my first months rent and help me out with anything that I could not afford.  My mom told me that I should pray about it before I move in with her, but I chose to ignore my mom and Heavenly Father and just do what I wanted.  I needed a place to live and she needed a roommate, she said she'd help me afford it, I really couldn't see how this would be bad.  Emily was making a lot of money as an accountant for some company and working at Hooters for her second job, where she made a lot of money in tips.  Anyway, so, I didn't listen to anybody and just did what I wanted.
After 3 months of living with Emily, I still wasn't able to afford living there.  So, I asked if we could talk to the apartment managers about breaking the lease and moving out.  Emily didn't want to move out, but she didn't mind if I moved out.  She said she would find another roommate.  When I talked to the apartment managers about it, they said that they would not let me take my name off of the lease until Emily found another roommate.  Emily thought she already knew somebody who would move in, but she wasn't too worried because she could make the monthly payment on her own, without me.  So, I moved out, with the hopes that somebody would move in soon and take over my portion of the lease.  Emily ended up not being able to find a roommate.  She had said she could afford the rent by herself, but she couldn't.  Another friend moved in with her for a little bit, but they said it wasn't permanent, so she wouldn't put her name on the lease.  Emily started to get really mean and crazy when I tried to talk to her about things.  Her and her friend would yell and swear at me.  They said that it was all my fault that Emily was having a hard time.  Then Emily lost her job and she became even angrier.  She said she was going to sue me.  I'm not sure what for, but I was scared of her.  I hoped she wouldn't come after me for anything.  She really turned out to be a monster.
After she lost her job, she could have talked to the managers about breaking the lease, but she didn't instead, she chose to live there and not pay rent until they kicked her out.  They gave her a date that she had to be out by, but she refused to leave.  They said they would charge her $80 each additional day that she was there after her move out date.  She still refused to leave.  She was there for a month and a half after the move out date.  Somehow, they finally got her to move out.  Being kicked out costs a lot more than working with the apartments to break your lease and do things the nice way.
Since my name was on the lease, I have to pay also.  I don't know how it all worked.  I'm not sure if the apartments sewed us or what.  But they have a lawyer that is coming after me to pay my share of all the money (that Emily Racked up) owed to the apartment complex.  We have been making payments to them.  We called at one time to figure out how much I owe and they said I owed $1400.00.  Last week they sent a garnishment to our bank demanding $1700.00 and something.  We called them to find out what was going on and they said that Emily filed for Bankruptcy, so now I have to pay her portion also.  I am so frustrated with all of this!  I really wish I would have used better judgement and listened to my mom about praying before I moved in with someone I didn't know that well.  If I had known what a monster she could be, I would have stayed away for sure.
Roger's mom thinks that they are just making up charges for us to pay.  We are all going to meet with the lawyers tomorrow.  I really hope that we can figure everything out and get the costs down.  We really can't afford all of this right now.  I feel really bad that Roger is the one who is having to pay for my mistake.