Sunday, August 13, 2017

Alissa's Birthday - August 13, 2017

Sunday - August 13th

Alissa turned 15 years old today. It's crazy how fast she is growing up. We had a nice relaxing day at home today. I started up late last night, decorating the house. I like to have the house decorated, so it makes the whole day feel like a party. I was watching a show while I decorated and I think it allowed me down a little. I didn't end up going to bed until 3am.
I slept in until 9am. That was nice. All the kids were awake when I climbed out of bed. I have Alissa a hug and told her happy birthday, then I got ready for the day. After that, I got busy making birthday cakes and icing. We all decided to decorate our own cakes. It was fun. I recorded it so, so I can make a time lapse video.

Grandma came over, we talked while kids played video games. Then we sang Happy birthday, and are out cake and ice cream. Roger's mom headed home shortly after that. She called right after she left, to tell Roger the mountain by us is on fire.
Alissa, Roger, forest, and I walked to see it. It wasn't too exciting, but it was a nice walk. After that we came home and relaxed. 













I took a lot more videos than I did pictures.
I'm struggling to stay awake right now. I'm so so very tired.
Grandma Mathison is really not doing well. She is going to pass away soon. I'm so sad to not have her here anymore, but I know she will be super Happy to be reunited with friends and family on the other side.
I know this is a weird way to end this post, but that's what happens when your brain is too tired.

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Lazy Days - August 8-9, 2017

Tuesday and Wednesday - August 8th and 9th

I traded shifts with Amanda, because she needed Friday off, so I had Tuesday off. I thought that would be good, because I have a lot of cleaning to do downstairs, so I can get the kiln going. The sooner I get the kiln going, the sooner I get to start my business. I had planned to get a lot done. But it didn't work that way. I was so tired all day. I kept trying to get myself going, but I just couldn't. I finally gave up and decided to just enjoy a lazy day. I used my time chillin' at the computer and blogging. It's been a long time since I've done that.  It was nice. I'm really enjoying the new Google photo. It is so nice! It saves all of my pictures and videos for free. I love it. It also, makes it super easy to make a collage of my photos. Since I'm too busy to do any scrapbooking, this is really nice.

I really enjoyed my day off, but I told myself I'd be super motivated and get a lot accomplished today to make up for yesterday. I started the day or strong. I woke up at 3:00am, exercised, showered, drank a breakfast drink, and headed to work. I finished my work quickly and got home around 11:30am. It was hard to keep moving after I got home. Alissa wanted to show me her color guard routine, so I watched her do that, then I ate some food, and laid down for a nap. The nap helped. I got up and started working down stairs. I didn't get very much done, when Alissa came asking if I could go pick up her friend, Erin. I quit what I was doing, to go and get her. Then I came home, had Roger look over the paperwork that I need to turn in to get my city business license. Roger and I took it to the city building to turn it in. Now, we have to wait for it to be approved. After that, Roger suggested we go get food. We went to the Mexican restaurant. It was good. Since we've been home from that, I can't get myself motivated to do anything. It's super frustrating. There is so much to do, but I have no energy to do it.
Alissa is loving the color guard.  It is a lot of work.  She practices a lot and is doing really well.  She is getting a lot of exercise and it is causing her to lose weight.  She keeps pointing it out to me.  Today she showed me her stomach.  She has always wanted a flat stomach and she is finally getting one.  I'm happy for her to be able to see that and feel good about herself.  I've always thought she is a beautiful girl, but it is hard to see that in yourself.  I love my kiddos so much and I think they are all so amazing.  I love to see them succeed and feel good about themselves.

Parker went to his Young Men's activity last night.  I always forget about activity night.  The young men decided to surprise Parker and just come and pick him up.  He was happy to go with them.  When he opened the door, the first thing the leader, Brother Corbett, said to him was, "Parker.  You are my hero!  You are so awesome!  I've been waiting to see you so I could tell you how awesome I think you are!  I watched that video of you eating those fish eyes.  You are the man!"  Parker loves hearing that compliment.  I think it made his day.  So Parker told them about the fish eyes and some of our Montana fun as they headed out the door.  Parker was happy to go and he had a lot of fun at the activity.

On Monday night, Brinley's friend, Khloe slept over. They had fun. These are the pictures and videos they took.  They are funny girls.  I really need to get my selfie stick fixed.  I think the selfie videos are a lot better with a selfie stick.  I think I will just tape it together, so next time the video wont be so shaky.
They decided to walk to the dollar store.  They started walking, but a storm was coming and it scared them, so they turned around and came back.  Roger drove them to the dollar store, so they didn't have to worry about the storm.
Khloe stayed until 5 ish on Tuesday. They were just having too much fun.
The reason they went to the Dollar store, was to buy some glue so they could make slime.  The dollar store didn't have glue.  They were really bummed.  They thought of another way to make slime.  I'm not sure how they did it, but I think the slime they made looks cool.  Brinley was making it into a bubble and it would grow and move around a little after she made it.  It looked really cool.
Today, Brinley is having another sleep over. This time with her friend, Ashlea. I don't usually show sleepovers when I have you work the next day, but I made an exception, because we had planned for her to sleepover this week on my day off and it didn't happen. Since my day off changed and Khloe came over. So Ashlea will sleep over tonight instead. Brinley and Ashlea we're pretty happy about that.

Forest has been really good at being outside, off his leash, and starting next to us. I love that. It's nice to not have to worry about him running away.
On Monday, my sister Kristy, sent me a message asking if I would come on a spur of the moment Montana trip with her. She said she feels really strongly that she needs to go and see grandma as soon as possible.  This week really wouldn't work for me.  I asked her if she could wait until next week.  She responded no.  She said she has a feeling that next week will be too late.  I really didn't like hearing that and I definitely hope she is wrong.  Anyway, about 2 to 3 hours after messaging with Kristy, I got a phone call from my uncle Johnny.  He was calling to let me know that grandma is in the hospital.  He took her to the emergency room yesterday morning.  She has been feeling really miserable for a while now.  I've been getting updates from everybody.  I'm pretty sure all of my sisters have called and talked to her.  I haven't called her yet.  I feel nervous to call her.  I'm not sure what to say.  I'm scared that it will be like it was when I called my mom when she was in the hospital.  It was hard for her to talk and I could tell she was in a lot of pain and didn't really want to talk.  It made me feel really sad and I desperately wanted to have her feeling good and be able to have a normal conversation with her.  I was blessed with that opportunity about 4 weeks later.  She finally was feeling better and we were able to talk and laugh together.  It was amazing.  Then the next day, she passed away.  I was very happy that my last memory of her was a good one.  I'm thankful that the awkward phone call where it was hard for her to talk and she was feeling so miserable, was not the last time we spoke.  I'm afraid that if I call my grandma, it will be like that, but I won't get a chance to talk to her when she is feeling normal and my last conversation with her will be a sad one.  I'm going to call her tomorrow.  I really do need to talk to her before I can't anymore.  She is ready to die and she wants it to be her time really bad.  I've known this for a while.  I will be happy for her, but it is still going to be so hard to let her go.  I'm going to miss her way too much.  Anyway, the latest updates are that she has pneumonia and there is a lot of fluid around her heart.  They don't know why.  They told her they would run some test to figure out why, then they could talk about a treatment plan.  She told them that she doesn't want them to treat it.  She would just like them to do comfort care for her.  The doctor also said that grandma cannot live on her own anymore.  Grandma told Johnny that he could put her in a nursing home if they need.  She keeps saying that she is sure she doesn't have much time left.  Aunt Bonnie is going to go and stay with grandma for as long as she needs, so grandma will not be alone and she won't have to go to a nursing home.  I'm glad for that.  Kristy and Kaylie headed up to Montana yesterday so they could see and spend some time with grandma.  I'm glad she was able to go.  I feel really bad that I couldn't go with her.  I really don't like being so busy.  I really need to get my business going and make some money so I can be free from my job.  I am a stay-at-home mommy!  Not a working mommy!  I have got to get this fixed so life can go back to the way it should be.

Saturday, August 5, 2017

Bone Family Reunion 2017 - August 5, 2017

Saturday - August 5th
We have been having lots and lots of busy days lately.  Alissa, Parker, and Brinley marched in the Wheat and Beat Days Parade in Garland this morning.  This was the first year we ever went to that parade.  I've always known about it, but haven't been, because something always seems to come up, keeping us from going.  We couldn't miss it this year, though, because our children were in it.  Alissa marched with the color guard and Parker and Brinley marched in front of them carrying the banner that announced the color guard and band.  They all had fun.  Alissa was a little frustrated with herself for a few mistakes she made.  But I saw all of the girls messing up here and there, so I don't think she has anything to worry about.  She was also embarrassed because she forgot to shave her legs this morning and her coach noticed and pointed it out in front of everybody.  Another girl had forgotten also, so Alissa wasn't the only one who got called out on that one.  Alissa was just really frustrated because she had tried so hard to make it so there was nothing for her to get called out on.  She was panicky when I curled the bottom of her hair and not all of her hair.  She said her coach told them to wear it completely straight or curly.  She was afraid that straight with curls at the end would get her in trouble.  It didn't.  She looked really cute.  The coach just wanted to make sure their hair was done nice. 
Later in the day when Alissa watched the videos we recorded, she was disappointed because each time we recorded her, were the times she messed up.  She said she didn't really well, except for a mess up at the beginning then again at the end.  Roger and I had set up our seats at the beginning of the parade route, then after they passed, we packed up and drover around to the end of the route to pick them up.  We got there before them, so we ran over to record them passing by again.
Here are the videos we took at the parade: Video at the start of the paradevideo taken at the end of the parade
After the parade, we came home and relaxed for a little while, then packed up and headed to the Bone Family Reunion.  We had a lot of fun.  There was lots to do and it was really fun to visit with my cousins.  I'm always really shy when I first get there, but once I convince myself to stop being shy and I start talking with my cousins, we have a lot of fun.  My favorite part was playing volleyball.  I used to dislike that when I was a kid, because I'm not very good and I felt like everybody was getting upset at me every time I missed it.  I can enjoy it a lot more as an adult.  I know it's a game and it is for fun, so I don't need to feel bad when I miss the ball.  It was a lot of fun to get caught up , play games, and spend time together.  I really do love family time.

I offered to get some food for Roger when I went to dish up my plate.  He said he didn't know what he wanted, so I told him I would surprise him.  While I was in line, I was trying to think of something funny or creative to surprise him with.  I couldn't think of anything, but my sister Missy had an idea.  She suggested hotdog on a hamburger bun or hamburger on a hotdog bun.  So that's what I did.  I fixed him a hamburger on a hotdog bun.  Here's the picture of him enjoying it.
 When I was getting our food. I had a hard time getting the ketchup and mustard to come out.  Each time, I ended up squeezing them too hard and it made a mess.  The first time, I ended up missing my plate completely and squirted it all over Parker's shoe.  After that, I at least got it on my plate, but I was trying to get it on the buns.  It was funny.

Kristy and her family were running late.  They got here a little bit after we did.  The parking lot was super crowded and it was really hard to find parking.  We got lucky, because we saw a spot right away and just pulled into it.  I almost made Roger back out and drive around until we see where everybody is meeting.  But, right before we did that, Roger saw Shelley.  We got out and asked her where they were all meeting.  She pointed to where they were.  I asked if we should drive over there, but she said we better not, because the parking lot is full.  I was glad we listened.  When Kristy got there, she called Linda to help her find a spot.  Linda went to the parking lot and found a spot.  She stood in it, while she tried to direct Kristy to it.  But another car came and stopped right in front of it.  The driver of that car refused to leave.  They just kept staring down Linda to get her to move.  Linda was frustrated and she moved.  I thought it was funny, because I was sitting and visiting with my cousins Sherri and Terri and when Linda told us about it, they were like, "Where's the car?  show us where it is.  We should go do something to it.  Like throw eggs at it or toilet paper it."  That made me laugh.  Of course, we didn't go and do anything.  It was just a funny thought.
 After we ate, Linda had some minute to win it games for us to play.  I started out announcing it, but I wasn't really sure what we were doing and I felt kind of stupid.  So, after the first game, I asked if there was anybody who was not so shy and awkward that would like to come and be the announcer and make things feel a little more fun.  My cousin Travis stepped up.  He did a much better job at it than I did.  I liked that.
 The games were fun, but they didn't last too long, because a couple people were leaving and we wanted to take a group photo of everybody together, before they left.



After the picture, we didn't end up going back to our games.  We all started talking, then Roger and Alissa grabbed the volleyball and headed to the court.  A bunch of us noticed and wanted to go play also.  When I walked around the corner to join them though, I was surprised because they weren't at the court.  They were gathered over by the water looking at something.  I later found out, that they had started to play and Alissa hit the ball and it went into the water.  They had to get creative to get it out.  The water was gross and it had a warning sign telling people not to swim in it.
After they got the ball, a lot of us were ready to play.  It was a lot of fun.  The only problem was the ball ended up going into the water a few times.





This was the worst time that the ball went in the water.  It went out there really far and we couldn't reach it.  so, my cousin, Julie, climbed on a floaty toy and headed out to get it.  It was so gross.  I'm so glad she was went and did that.  It was really funny to watch. 
Alissa and I both took videos of her trying to get the ball.  You can watch them by clicking on these links: Alissa's videoMy video
My video is not as good as Alissa's.  I used my picture camera to take mine, because I didn't want to walk over to get my phone.  My picture camera had the zoom lense on, so it was hard to keep it still.
 I asked Missy to take pictures of all the fun, while I played.  She was really funny and took a bunch of pictures of me, pictures of our feet, a sock, and just some random things.  At one point she gave the camera to Damen and told him what she had been doing, so he took over and continued doing the same thing.  I think it is funny.  Anyway, I 'm glad Damen was able to come.  I had seen on Facebook that he was scheduled to work.  Missy told him to trade shifts with someone.  I'm guessing that's what he did, since he was there.  
Kari couldn't make it though.  He boyfriend, Justin's sister tried to commit suicide yesterday, so she is in the hospital.  Missy said that it looked like she had taken a bunch of pills.  They couldn't pump her stomach though, because by the time they found her, the pills had been in her system to long to be able to pump her stomach and get them out.  She is in a coma and has not woken up yet.  They don't know if she will and if she does, they have no idea how much damage has been done.  I feel really bad for Kari having to deal with that.  Hearing that someone you care about is so upset that they actually tried to kill themselves, is really hard.  I think the hardest part would be to not feel guilty and blame yourself.  You probably start thinking of all the things you wish you had done.  Why didn't I realize this person was that upset?  What could I have done differently?  Why wasn't I a better friend?  Stuff like that.  I heard from somebody who has dealt with people who are suicidal and a person who has lost a lot of family members to suicide.  And they say that, most people start acting happy and normal again, before they commit suicide.  So, in most cases, friends and family are concerned, but then the person starts acting normal and happy again, so they think everything is going good and they stop feeling so worried.  Then the person does it.  The people I learned this from, believed that this happens because the person has made up their mind that they are finally going to do it and they feel happy about their decision,  Because most of them feel that the world and everybody around them would be happier and better off if they were gone.  So, it's almost like a weight off of their shoulders and they feel happy before they do it.  
Sorry to get off my main subject with talk about suicide.  I just think it is so sad.  It is a very sad and difficult thing to deal with.  I feel like there is so much that I don't understand about it.  It also makes me feel bad, to think that so many of them actually feel everybody would be happier without them.  So many people don't know their own worth.  They just can't see it.  It makes me think I need to work harder to help all the people around me, see and know how great and important they are to me.

Okay.  Back to the fun.  So, these are some of the pictures after Missy and Damen told me what they were doing.
 On this google photos app, it gives suggestions for your pictures and videos.  It sent a really funny suggested image to Roger.  He thought it was funny, so he saved it and shared it with me.
This is it.  in the one on the left, I was trying to look intimidating to the other team.  Lol.  I'm embarrassing!
Every time Missy took pictures of Mikal, he made funny faces at her, so there are some funny pictures of Mikal in here.  I thought it was really funny as I was scrolling through the pictures.  Everyone's playing the game and happy and smiling, then a picture of Mikal with that angry looking face would pop up.  It made me laugh.
 Here we are trying to save the ball from the water again.

 This is my cousin, Sandy's little boy.  He is so cute!  He stayed on the side of the court for a lot of the game.  He wanted his mom and dad. 




 For a little while, after we had lost the ball too many times in the water, Parker stood close to the water and watched for the ball so he could stop it from going in.  But, eventually he got bored.  He had brought some of his cars with him, so he grabbed his cars and played in the sand with some cousins.


I made some cute little slideshows of our fun times at the reunion.  I need to figure out how I can post them on here, with out having a link to it.  But until then, here are the videos.  Just click on these links to watch them.
Bone Family Reunion 2017 Slideshow
Bone Family Reunion 2017 - Volleyball

The reunion was lots of fun.  Our drive home, was not.  Parker's tummy started to hurt.  He thought he needed to throw up or that he was just getting car sick.  Anyway, we asked all the kids to go to the bathroom before we left the park.  Parker said he really did not have to go.  So he sat in the truck and waited while we all went.  Then, Roger stopped at the first town we passed, to get himself a soda.  As soon as we left the town, Parker told us he had to go to the bathroom.  We were frustrated, because he had just had 2 opportunities to go and he hadn't taken them.  We didn't understand at the time, that he had an upset tummy and was just having a hard time knowing if he had to throw up or poop.  Anyway, we found another place to stop and Parker went to the bathroom.  He was in there for a while, but came out saying that he felt much better.  Then as soon as we got back on the main highway and we were outside of that town, he told us he thought he needed to go again.  So, we found another town to stop at.  This time, we looked for a McDonald's, so we could go in, eat something, and relax while Parker was in the bathroom.  We knew he needed more time to get it out of his system so we could make the drive home.  He was in there for a really long time.  When he came out, he was shaky and cold.  He really wasn't feeling well.  I think the biggest problem was that he was dehydrated.  I got him to drink some water when we got back in the truck, then he fell asleep.  So we were able to get home.  He woke up, right before we took our exit, and told us he needed to use the bathroom again.  Luckily, we were almost home.  I used my phone to disarm our security system and have the door unlocked so he could just run in and make it to the bathroom on time.  That's something I really love about our security system.  We used to have to wait at the door, while everybody gathered their things.  And it always seemed like the person with the keys was the last one to get to the door.  It's nice to have a code on the door to unlock it or we just use our phones.

Friday, August 4, 2017

Mini Color Guard - August 4, 2017

Friday - August 4th

We did the mini color guard today.  The kids and I had to be over at the school at 8:00am.  They ended up having to use the middle school gym, because they are refinishing the floor at the high school.  When we first got there, Brinley, Parker, and I sat on the bleachers and watched while Alissa and her team practiced.  We didn't have to wait for very long, before there was stuff to be done.
The coach came with all of the shirts.  I helped sort the shirts in to piles, then when people came, we checked the list for their name and shirt size, then gave them their shirts.  After all the kids were checked in, I went home to eat some breakfast.  While the kids practiced.  I came back to the school a little before 11:30, for the parent show.
I took pictures of the kids as they waited for their turns to perform.  Brinley was excited because she made a new friend.  Her friend's name is Tonya.  She is the girl sitting right next to Brinley.
After the show, I wanted to take a picture of the kiddos together.  Alissa was standing by us waiting for me to take their picture, but I couldn't get Parker to cooperate.  He wanted to show us where he stood and tell us about some of the mistakes he made.  I wanted to hear that stuff, but I wanted to take a quick picture first, so Alissa could go talk with her friends.  By the time Parker finally came over by us, Alissa had to go, because her coach wanted to talk to them.  It was really frustrating.  Anyway, I took some pictures of Parker and Brinley while we were waiting.
 Alissa came back over by us for some pictures then we headed home to relax for a little while before the parade.

The parade is called the 'Wheat and Beat Days Kid's Parade'.  I've never been to it before, so I didn't know what to expect.  I think not very many people usually go to it.  They just block off the street and any kids who wants to be in it, can.  They can dress up or whatever.  Also, they can walk, ride their bike, or any kind of riding toy.  This is the first year that the mini color guard marched with them.  Usually the mini color guard marches in the Pioneer Day parade in Bear River City.  I'm not sure why they didn't do that this year.
 I was surprised that there were no people out sitting and waiting to see the parade.  It confused me a little and I felt very unsure about if we were on the right street.  But I had checked before hand, so we went ahead and set up our chairs in a nice shady area.  It wasn't too long after we sat down, that people started to come and sit near us.  Alissa said that most of the people watching, were at the end, where we were.  Amber Hayden (someone Roger met on his mission.  They served in the same area) came to watch.  Her daughter and son were in the parade.  She brought her family with her.  We had fun visiting while we waited for the parade to start.  We also sat next to our neighbor's, the Unsworths.  They had come and brought family also.  We weren't right next to them, so we had a harder time visiting with them.
It was fun.  Here are the videos we took- Video from start of parade, before color guard came,  Video I tookVideo Roger took.