scrapbooking

I did some scrapbooking today. I haven't done any scrapbooking in a long time. I have a lot to get caught up on. I just thought I would share what I did tonight.

A Traumatic Experience

On the paper shredder, there is a picture of hand with a line across it, warning you to keep hands out of the shredder. I always looked at that and thought........There is no way a hand could fit in there. Well today, Brinley proved that it can. Parker and Brinley were helping me shred papers this afternoon. Brinley and Parker were taking turns putting their papers in. I think what happened was that Brinley was holding her paper too close to the shredder part, while she was waiting for it to finish shredding Parker's paper, and the machine started to take Brinley's paper before Brinley was ready. So she was trying to pull the paper out when her hand went in. I was sitting right by her when it happened, but I was looking at a paper that I had in my hand, so I didn't see how her hand ended up in the machine. She just started screaming. I saw that her hand was being sucked in to the machine. I grabbed a hold of her and her arm and tried to pull it out. I couldn't get it out! And I couldn't get the stupid machine to turn off! Roger was down stairs in his office with the door closed when all of this happened. So, I was screaming for Roger at the top of my lungs while I was trying desperately to save her hand from being sucked all the way in to the machine. Parker and Alissa are standing there screaming their heads off because they are scared and don't know what to do. Roger said that he heard some screaming from upstairs but figured it was just the kids playing. He turned the volume down on his computer just to make sure it was nothing bad. He said he could hear the terror in our screams and he came running upstairs as fast as he could. Right as Roger got to us, the machine turned off and I was able to get Brinley's hand out. I was so sure that it was going to be a bloody mess, because her hand was in there pretty far. Luckily there was no blood. Her fingers are just bruised and there is a little cut on one of them. When we had her hand out and realized that she was okay, it was such a relief. We sat down on the couch with Brinley to look more closely at her fingers and give her loves, that was the point where Me, Alissa, and Parker just started crying. It was a terrifying experience. I could not get her hand out and that stupid machine was sucking it in farther and farther! As we were crying and trying to calm down, Parker said, "Mom, my heart is going boom, boom, boom really fast?" We all stopped crying for a little bit to say a prayer and thank Heavenly Father for Brinley's hand not getting all cut up, then we had some hot chocolate and watched a Christmas movie to help get the scariness out of our minds. After the movie we went out to dinner and walked around Walmart. It was bedtime by the time we got back home. When we said our bedtime prayer, Alissa said, "......thank you for letting Brinley be okay....and if there were any of our relatives, who have already died, that were there and helped us, tell them thank you also." I thought that was really cute.

God, Open Your Door to My Family

This is a poem that Shelley wrote while our mom was sick. I think Shelley has an amazing talent for poetry.

God, Open Your Door to My Family

God of the heavens and stars

in my heart a simple prayer,

I humbly call out to you

to help me from way up there.

It is a personal challenge

that needs your open door,

I pray to you with all my heart

for the courage to endure.

I share the pains of my Mother

who is probably going to die,

she has always been close to me

and I don't want to say goodbye.

Her loving ways are in my heart

and her pains I hate to see,

God, please help us to be strong

when she leaves our family.

Please open your door of heaven

and help us to heal from pain,

when she has to leave us behind

help us to face the fallen rain.

-Shelley Williams

Halloween Fun

Trick-or-Treating was a lot of fun. The kids got a ton of candy! We went to the trunk-or-treat at our church. The kids came home with their pumpkin containers filled almost to the top. Then I told the kids to dump all of their candy out, so we could go trick-or-treating around the neighborhood. We went trick-or treating at 6:00pm and came home just a little before 8:00pm. They were able to get their baskets filled almost to the top again. They had so much fun. It was funny, because when we first went out, the kids were racing from house to house and I had a hard time keeping up with them. After a while they started walking from house to house and by the end, I was practically pushing them, telling them "We're almost home." Even though they were so tired at the end, they still asked to go to more houses. But at the rate they were walking, it would have taken us an hour to go down one more street, plus Parker and Brinley weren't even carrying their baskets anymore. They said the baskets were too heavy and had me carry them for them.

Halloween

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

A Post Without Pictures

Parker is wearing his spider man pajamas. He just noticed that there are flaps of material under the arm of his shirt. It makes it look like he has wings. So while I was sitting here deciding what I should write or if I even wanted to write, he climbed up on our tall kitchen stools and decided to fly. We have tile floor in the kitchen and his landing did not go well. I hurried and picked him up off of the floor and asked him if he fell. He said "No. I have wings! I wanted to fly!" Anyways, it was very funny and cute. Probably a lot funnier if you were here to experience it.

I don't blog very often and when I do I don't write very much. It's more about the pictures. I'm not a great writer so I post pictures. I decided that I will try writing more. I don't know if I'll really stick with it. I'm very indecisive. But right now, the plan is to write more.

Life has been crazy since I wrote last. You just never know what is going to happen. I've kept to myself a lot lately. When life gets tough, that is when I want and need friends the most, but for some reason, that is when I keep to myself the most. Life has been tough lately. In August, my cousin lost his oldest son (age 8) in a car accident. I rarely see my cousin and I've only seen his little boy a few times, but hearing that really broke my heart. I just feel so bad that my cousin and his family have to go through the pain of losing a child. It just upset me so bad. His children are about the same age as mine and I just don't know that I could handle a trial like that. So I cried for like a week when I heard about that. I couldn't talk to anybody about it without bursting in to tears. I'm just too sensitive and I can't stand to know other people are suffering. It hurts my heart so bad. I'm so glad that they have the gospel in their lives. I don't know how people get through something like that with out the knowledge of a loving Heavenly Father and with out the knowledge that they will see each other again.

It wasn't long after all of that that I found out my sister-in-law has ovarian cancer. I don't know much about it though. I keep asking Roger to call and find out more, but he hasn't yet. I know I could call, but I have a really hard time getting myself to call my in-laws. I guess I just think because they are Roger's family, he should be the one to call them. He's more comfortable with all of them and the conversation flows much smoother when he is talking to them rather than me talking to them.

After finding out about my sister-in-law, I start to feel a little worried. So I schedule an appointment with a gynecologist. At the appointment, she just tells me that I'm fine. Everything I'm experiencing is normal and it comes with age. But then she added that my weight may be contributing to some of the crazy things my body does. So then I am really determined that I am going to lose weight. I decided to try the HCG diet. When I first heard of it I thought it was crazy. When I learned more about it, I thought it sounded like a good idea. So I did the HCG diet. It was really hard to stick with, but I did it and I lost 30lbs. When you finish the really strict part of the diet, you are supposed to eat no sugar or carbs for 3 weeks. You can add everything back into your diet after that. Everyday you step on the scale. Your goal is to maintain your ending weight for 6 weeks. After that you can do the diet again if you need. They claim that after the six weeks, you won't have to think as much about your weight. You body should know by then that that is your new weight and so maintaining becomes much easier.

So the first day of my six week maintenance (Saturday, October 3rd), I get a call from my sister letting me know that my mom is in the hospital. I was so worried about my mom. As soon as I got off of the phone with my sister, I just started crying. Alissa, Parker and Brinley were pretty uncomfortable about my crying. They came in the kitchen and stared at me. Alissa asked why I was crying. I told her that Grandma Bone was sick and I was just really worried about her. I just really wanted her to be OK. I couldn't get my emotions under control. I just sat in the kitchen crying for a while. The kids stood there for a little bit, unsure what to do, then one of them suggested that I should go wake up their daddy. He works the graveyard shift so he had just gone to sleep recently. I just thought it was funny that my crying made them so uncomfortable.

So here's what happened. On Friday my mom was really sick and throwing up. I guess ton Saturday morning she was still really sick and weak from throwing up. Then she started having a hard time breathing. Dad rushed her to the emergency room. I'm not sure of all the details, I'm just telling you what I understood of what was happening. There was some kind of a blockage, I don't know what the doctors had realized before they decided to operate, but I was told that it was an exploratory surgery to find what the problem was and fix it. She was in surgery for about 3 hours I think. They found a tumor (I'm not sure if it was in her stomach or by her stomach). They removed the tumor and extra areas around it just in case it was cancerous, but they didn't think it was. My mom had had her stomach stapled like 26 years ago. So part of her stomach was not being used. I think that is where the tumor was. So they removed that part of her stomach. I'm not sure if they did anything else. A few days later they came back with the result that the tumor they removed was cancerous. They said it was a rare and very aggressive form of stomach cancer. That was the most devastating news ever! I don't think I have ever cried so hard as I did after hearing that. For 2 hours after hearing that news, my hands were numb and my arms tingled. It was really weird, but I was too upset to care. We haven't been able to learn anything else about the cancer. They can't see how far the cancer has spread, until she recovers from her surgery. She was in the hospital for 2 weeks after the surgery. The day she got out of the hospital, we went to St. George. Roger stayed for the weekend then came home, because he had to go to work and school. Me and the kids stayed for the week. Mom got out of the hospital on Friday the 16th. They weren't going to let her leave the hospital because her white blood cell count was still up, but she just wanted to go home so bad, that the doctor gave in and let her leave. She had to go back and see the doctor on Monday so he could make sure she was doing OK. On Monday, her white blood cell count had gone up. So they did a scan and decided that they needed to operate again. I don't understand it all, but there was a lot of fluid in areas that there shouldn't be fluid. They decided to the operation the next day. Mom couldn't eat after midnight and we were supposed to be at the hospital at 1:30pm on Tuesday, October the 20th. I really like being in st. George for that week, because I didn't feel as helpless as I had at home. But it was hard being there and seeing my mom looking so scared. I had a hard time, not bursting into tears. I'm proud of myself for keeping it together. We were at the hospital at 1:30pm and they didn't end up taking her in to surgery until 6:30pm. So she had 5 hours to sit and worry and feel scared and hungry. I felt so bad for her. Before she went in to surgery, I pointed out that 31 years ago on that same day, she had also been in the hospital. It was for something much happier though. It was too have a baby (Me). I was born on October 21st at 1:12am. The surgery lasted for 4 hours. As they were sewing her up, they noticed something leaking from her stomach. There was a hole that they had not noticed before, so they had to fix that before they could stitch her back up. We think that the hole in her stomach was what was causing her all the trouble after the last surgery. That is why she wasn't recovering very well from the last surgery. I'm glad they caught that. She was in the ICU for 2 after the surgery. I feel so bad for her, because she had such a hard time breathing after the first surgery and that was a problem again after this surgery. It is so scary and so hard to see her so sick. I left St. George on Saturday. She was doing a lot better. She was breathing easier. Her body is so weak. I don't know how long she will be in the hospital, but I think it will be a while. Will still don't know anything about the cancer, which is just killing me. My mom is very positive about the cancer though. She is very determined to fight it. She has already started using some essential oils that are supposed to help get rid of cancer. She said she is very open minded about trying any method to get rid of it. She is going to do whatever it takes.

Oh yeah.... so about my diet. After all this stuff with my mom, I have gained 10lbs back. I just had bigger things rather than my weight to worry about. Plus I was feeling bitter because it was the stomach stapling that caused my mom all this trouble and I realized that these crazy get skinny quick diets are ridiculous and dangerous and definitely not worth it! I would rather be fat and alive than skinny and dead. I want to be healthy, so I am still going to work at the weight loss, but I'm going to do it the hard way. The way that takes time and won't kill you! I'm going to eat healthy and exercise. I feel really good about my decision. I'm so sad that it took something like this to help me to come to this realization. I just know that I love all the people around me and I don't care what size they are, so why do I worry so much that other people care what size I am.

Yesterday we went to the Fall Carnival at Alissa and Parker's school. It was horrible. They decided to do it inside and block off half of the school. It was so crowded you could hardly walk. They usually have it outside with bounce houses and fun stuff that you buy tickets to play on so the kids were excited about going. We spent most of the time waiting in line. A lot of the time we weren't sure what we were in line for (I'm short and can't see over people very well). The kids spent one ticket to get their faces painted, then two tickets to eat a donut off of a string. I couldn't stand to be in the school any longer, plus I couldn't see anything else that might be fun for the kids. So I threw the rest of the tickets away and we went home. It was the worst fall carnival I have ever been to. I hope that they realized what a bad idea that was, so they won't try and do something like that again next year.

Summer Fun

We play outside in our little swimming pools all the time lately. I usually sit in a chair in the shade reading a book, while the kids play in the pools. It is a lot of fun for the kids and so nice for me, because I get to relax. Now that the kids are getting older I don't have to be right next to the pool holding on to one of them so they won't drown. It is so nice!

Anyway, I have been taking lots of pictures and videos of all our fun and I thought it was about time that I share some of them. These pictures are from July 25th. That was the weekend of Tremonton City Days. So in the morning we went to the park where they had a lot of bounce houses up and fun stuff like that for the kids. It was really hot, so when we got back we set up the swimming pools and cooled down. (I realized that we did that the last two years after we went to Tremonton City Days. It is becoming a tradition for us.) Roger was with us playing outside. I don't get to relax and read a book when Roger comes out, because he always wants to play. We have lots of fun together.

Our neighbors were going out of town. They had a half of a watermelon left over from the 24th celebrations. They didn't want it to go bad while they were gone, so they brought it over to us. It was so yummy! I took pictures of Roger, Parker and Alissa taking big bites.

Brinley didn't want to come eat watermelon yet. she was having too much fun in the pool.

After eating the watermelon, Roger decided it was time for him to get in the pool. He convinced me to join him, but since I am the camera man, there are no pictures of me. I did set the video camera up before I got in so we have video of our pool fun. It's a long video, so I'm not gonna share it with you.

Roger stayed out and played in the water for a long time, but he had the hose with him for most of the time. So if you got too close, you got sprayed. The kids kept trying to sneak over and grab the hose every time he put it down, so they could spray him. But he always got the hose back and sprayed them worse than they got him. The kids loved it! They had a lot of fun. I only approached Roger if I had the camera in my hands, so he would not be able to spray me. But the camera did not stop him, he still sprayed me. He just sprayed my legs.

After Roger went in, Alissa made up an obstacle course. They ran through the sprinkler.

Through the other swimming pool. (I have a picture of it, but I couldn't get it in the right place on my post. I don't know why it won't let me move the pictures around right now, but it won't. So I just deleted it.) Then they slide down the slide and into the pool.

After they finished playing obstacle course, Alissa asked me to take some pictures of her swimming. Ever since we went to visit Aunt Kelly and played in her big swimming pool, Alissa has been practicing going under the water so she won't be afraid. She almost drowned when she was at the pool at Kelly's. After that experience, Kelly started teaching her about being comfortable in the water and how to hold her breath when she goes under and a little about swimming. Alissa loved having Aunt Kelly teach her all that stuff. When ever she does a good job, she says that she thinks Aunt Kelly would be so proud of her.

We decided it was time to put the pools away. After we finished putting everything away, Alissa grabbed her bike and asked if we would take the training wheels off. She said she didn't want to use them anymore, because none of her friends used training wheels anymore. So Roger took them off. I was inside, but roger said she just got on the bike and started riding. she did really well. Roger was yelling for me to come see. I hurried out and took some pictures. I was so surprised at how well she was doing. Roger had to teach her how to turn with out falling and help her with stopping. She has been out practicing everyday since then and she is doing really well. She loves riding her bike.

Parker was just being goofy playing on the slide, so I had to take some pictures of him.

Brinley wanted pictures of her riding her scooter. She is starting to go really fast on it now.

The sky looked really cool with the clouds and the color, so I took some pictures. I looked up at the sky while I was taking this picture and I didn't see a white ball of something flying through the air. So I was surprised when I looked down at my picture and saw this. So I hurried and took another one. There was nothing. I'm sure it was probably just an insect or something that I didn't see and the light from the flash reflected off of it. I just thought it was fun. I like to imagine that it is something mysterious and unknown.

This is the picture that I took right after I took the first one.

Happy Birthday Delia! We Love You!

This is a Birthday video that we made for me niece Delia. I tried to post it on facebook and my computer started giving me fits, so I will try to post it again later. In order to get the video to fit on my blog, I had to change the speed on the video. That is why everything is going fast.

Happy Birthday Grandpa

We made a video for the world's greatest Grandpa and Father. Happy Birthday!

This is a picture of my dad holding my sister Kristy. I just wanted to post a picture of him and this was the first one I found. I love my dad so much. He is an amazing guy. I am so blessed to be his daughter. He works so hard to take care of all of us. I'm just amazed at all the things he does and has done for us. I love you Dad.

Taking Good Care of Archie

Brinley was being way too cute this morning. She was in the living room giving Archie loves. Then she came in the kitchen and this is our conversation:

Brinley - Mommy. Archie go to Aunt Kelly's?

Jenny - Yup. Archie will go back to Aunt Kelly's in August.

Brinley - Archie miss Aunt Kelly........He sad.........I KNOW! I make Archie better!

Can I sing Archie a song Mom?

Jenny - I think Archie would love that! That is a really good idea!

Brinley paused and thought for a moment.

Brinley - Ummmm.........Can I sing........"Big Dogs Don't Cry"!?!

Jenny - Ooohh.....That sounds like a song Archie will really like!

Brinley - Okay, Mom.

Then she ran into the living room to sing her song to Archie and give him more loves. And I ran downstairs to get my camera. She is such a cute, funny girl. She is always making me laugh. After she finished her song, she said, "I made him better! Archie happy now!"

Parker's Birthday

I can't believe my little boy is 5 yrs old! Time goes by way too fast.

When I had my first ultra sound, they noticed that Parker had some fluid around his heart. Fluid around the heart usually means there is an abnormality. They couldn't find any reason for the fluid. They looked at his heart every other week until he was born. The fluid slowly went away. By the time he was due, the fluid was all gone. The doctor wanted me to have a C-section so we wouldn't put any stress on Parker's heart. They checked Parker's heart right after he was born. They couldn't see anything wrong so they let me hold him and nurse him. They took Parker to the nursery while they got me settled in my room. they had told me they would bring him to me as soon as I got all settled. But they didn't bring him to me. The doctor came in and told me that something was wrong so they admitted him to the NICU. About an hour after that, they came in and told me that they needed to life flight him to Primary Children's Hospital. I had been prepared for Parker to be in the NICU. I went through that with Alissa and I knew I could handle it. I was not prepared for Parker to be taken to another hospital. I did not handle that well. This is a picture of me holding Parker one more time before they flew him to Primary Children's. My face is all red and puffy from all of the crying I was doing.Roger went to Primary Children's Hospital to be with Parker. Parker had a narrowing in his Aorta. He had surgery the day after he was born. Parker survived the surgery and so did we. Here we are at Primary Children's Hospital.
My handsome little baby boy.

Our first family photo.

Here are a few pictures of my handsome little baby boy. I just can't believe how fast the time went.

Here are some pictures from Parker's birthday. The kids were so excited when they woke up. I had decorated the house and set out a lot of fun little knick-knacks on the table. They all had so much fun playing. It was really hard to get them to go to school. I had bought a treat for Parker to take to his class. Parker was a little confused when it was time to go to school. He thought that as soon as he turned five he would start going to Alissa's school. He was pretty disappointed when he found out that he still had to go to his school.

Parker's cake.

We went out to eat.

Parker opening his presents and Roger making a face.

Blowing out the candles.

I deleted my last post, because I am feeling much better about my job. I just have a hard time dealing with change.

Car Accident

We went to salt Lake for my niece, Kaylie's Birthday. Her birthday party was at Build a Bear. The kids loved it! They love their bears. That was the first time they had ever been to build a bear. I didn't get any good pictures of them holding their finished bears. Parker and Brinley were really tired and fussy by the time the party was over. Here's some pictures of the kids washing their bears.

Alissa hugging her finished bear. She named it Sparkles. Parker named his bear Parker and Brinley named her bear Brinley. I love my little ones! They are so cute!

A picture of everybody at the party. My niece Kaylie is on the left. Brinley is sitting in the front with her cousins, Kendra and Kalista. Parker didn't want to be in the picture. He was pretty fussy by this point, so he is sitting off to the side.

After the party we went to pick up Roger from his brother Tyler's house. We visited with Tyler and Melissa for a while. It was a lot of fun. We stayed a lot later than we had planned on. They offered to let us stay the night, but we refused because we didn't have anything with us for sleeping over. So we left. We stopped at Wendy's and got some chicken nuggets for me and the kids to eat on the way home. Roger ordered a sandwich. We sat in the Parking lot while Roger ate his food, then we went on our way. We didn't make it very far. We got in a car accident. I drew a picture to help explain what happened. We came to a stop light. It was red, so we were stopping. Before we came to a complete stop, the light turned green. So we started to go. there was a black truck on our left. It was a little bit in front of us. A car going the other direction decided to turn left in front of us. The truck saw it coming and was able to swerve out of the way. We did not see it (due to the truck being there) until the car was right in front of us. We didn't really have time to react before we crashed. It was really scary. Roger was driving. The kids were really scared. They had a hard time calming down. Uncle Tyler came and picked us up. the kids were scared to get in the car. Tyler promised them that he would drive really slowly. It was a rough night. We got in the accident at 9:45pm. Luckily I had our winter jackets in the van. It was really cold outside. Before we had left to salt Lake, I remembered that we should take our jackets in case of an emergency. Roger told me that we didn't need them. I insisted that we did and I grabbed them anyway. Roger said, "Fine! You can rub it in my face if we have to use them." I am doing a good job at rubbing it in that I was right. Anyway, so we are all ok I think. I have bruises from the seat belt and my neck really hurts. Parker woke up the next morning really sick. He had a fever and was throwing up. I took him to the doctor today and the doctor said that all of his symptoms could be caused by head trauma. They sent me to Ogden with him to get some pictures of his brain. we haven't heard anything about the results yet. If it was something bad, I'm sure we would have heard something by now. I hope that we don't find out anything bad. I love Tremonton when we are having a hard time, because you only have to tell one person and everybody will hear about it. After church, everybody had heard about it. We got a ton of phone calls on Sunday night we also had some visitors. People were very concerned. The relief society president brought us dinner on Sunday night. This morning my visiting teacher brought some doughnuts and juice over and tonight my friend brought over a plate of peanut butter bars. We are so blessed to have so many people that care about us. It has been rough, but knowing that there are so many people that care and are willing to help us how ever they can really helps to make me feel better.

Here is a scrapbook page that I made about our accident. I didn't take pictures of the accident. I was in a daze after it happened. I couldn't really think straight. I took pictures of the rental car (mini van) that we are driving.

Sorry for such a negative post last time. I have been really busy lately and I don't like it. I am a person who loves to be at home with family. I do not like to be busy or overwhelmed and I have been very busy and very overwhelmed lately. I am just not handling it very well. I do like blogging. I guess I was just having a bad day. I don't think I am going to use this blog for my weightloss. I might post some successes, but other than that, I will keep this as my family blog. I probably won't post very often, though.

We went to St. George over Easter. It was a lot of fun to see my family. We took the kids hiking for the first time. This is a picture of them ready to go hiking.We hiked Joe's Trail in Harrisburg.We stopped a lot to take pictures. The kids loved it. It was a little scary hiking with Parker, though. He was not afraid of anything. After we took this picture, Parker refused to come down the way we had went up. He wanted to climb down on the big rock. Roger was next to him, so he could catch him if he fell. I looked over just in time to see Parker falling face first into another rock. Roger reached over and grabbed Parker's face, before it hit the rock. It was such a close call.Walking with our cousins, Kaylie and Kendra, to go swimming.

Sitting in the chair with cousins, Kalista and Kendra. Decorating Easter eggs.

These pictures are from our second hike. We went to Redcliffs. This is a picture of the kids standing in a hollowed out tree.

A picture with our cousins, Ben and Kristin.

I always have to take pictures of the kids jumping from bed to bed at the hotel. It's fun to try and get good pictures of them while they are in the air.

Playing at the water park in St. George. I love this water park. It is a lot of fun.

Alissa had a bad fall. I didn't realize that I had snapped a picture right as she was falling.

Brinley was really funny. She sat in that same spot for most of the time we were there. She wouldn't move, even when all of the other kids went somewhere else to play. I don't know why she didn't move, but she seemed to be having fun.