Mommy Alone Time - September 25, 2016

Sunday - September 25th

I had a really bad day yesterday.  I have been so stressed out with homeschooling, canning the fruit from our fruit trees, and trying to do everything else that I regularly do.  On Friday night, I reached my breaking point.  I couldn't handle it anymore.  I put the kids to bed and pretty much ended up crying myself to sleep.  I was still really fussy, sad, depressed, and overwhelmed yesterday.  The kids asked me what was for breakfast and I told them that they were on their own.  I was tired of all the fighting I hear from Parker and Brinley each day and all the complaining I hear from all of the kiddos.  The biggest complaints are that there is nothing to eat, I never make anything good, and whenever Brinley doesn't have friends over she complains that she hates her life and she has the worst life ever.  It all just gets to be too much.  When you spend so much time working to keep everybody happy and you feel like they are never satisfied and happy, it's exhausting and frustrating.  Then I was frustrated with myself, because Roger is losing weight and I am just getting fatter.  I just was starting to feel like a big fat failure.  It is horrible to feel that way.  Anyway, I pretty much locked myself downstairs and scrapbooked all morning.  Then when Roger woke up, I went up to talk to him and burst into tears.  I had a really good cry.  He spent a lot of time trying to cheer me up and remind me that I am great.  I'm very thankful that he is so kind and so patient with me.  I cried for a while, then spent more time scrapbooking, while Roger took Parker and Alissa ice skating and Brinley played with her friends.  When Roger got home, we went to buy some ice cream and stayed up late finishing watching the first season of 'Stranger Things'.   By the end of the day, I was feeling much better.
I woke up feeling much happier this morning.  Roger took the kids to Salt Lake today to go to Dan's son, Benji's birthday party.  So, I have the day to myself to recover and scrapbook.  I'm loving that.  Roger asked me to send him some pictures of the outside of the house.  I assume he was talking with someone and wanted to show them what our house looks like.

 It's easier to relax when the house is clean, so I had to wash the dishes before I could really enjoy my relaxing time.  Forest was such a stinker while I was trying to get the dishes done.  I couldn't keep him off of the dishwasher.  It was frustrating, but he looked so cute, so I took some pictures.