Our Doggies - January 28, 2019

Monday - January 28th

Pictures that Parker took with a cool filter on his phone camera.

 Pictures I took of Parker and Forest on January 25th.

 A goofy hat I crocheted on January 20th.

I Forgot To Sleep in For Late Start Today - January 23, 2019

Wednesday - January 23rd

Since the kids didn't have school on Monday, it threw things off on my mind and I totally forgot it was Wednesday. Last night when I set my alarms, I though about how nice it will be tomorrow night when I can set my alarms back an hour and enjoy sleeping in for an extra hour. I didn't realize that that was the night I should have turned my alarms back. So, I woke up at the normal time. Even getting up and out of bed a little earlier than usual. I brushed my teeth and started waking up the kids by the time I realized it was late start. I was so bummed I didn't get an extra hour of sleep. Luckily, I was able to tell the kids not to get up yet, so they could enjoy their extra hour of sleep.

A new 'Cold' podcast came out this morning. I love Wednesdays because of that. It's always so sad after I listen to it, because I have to wait a whole week for the next one and to find out more. The Susan Powell case is so interesting and sad. There is so much more to this story than what the news had reported about it. It is shocking the things she was dealing with.

I made bread and fudge today. I've never made fudge before, so I wanted to try it. It is good. The only problem is that fudge is so rich, it's hard to eat. I've always thought that. I just didn't think too much about it when I made it. It will take a while to eat it.

PC Laptops called to let us know what is wrong with the computer. It's not a virus that made it stop. It was me. I used up all the space on it with my videos and pictures. The hard drives being too full, made it so it couldn't run anymore. We are paying them to put in a bigger hard drive, so it will work again.

Funny Ghost Adventures Episode - January 22, 2019

Tuesday - January 22nd

I couldn't get myself to get a lot done today. I have no energy. I tried working out. It felt extra hard, so I didn't finish it. Also, Alissa called and asked me to pick her up from school, shortly after I started my work out. So, I picked Alissa up. She worked on homework and I crocheted while watching a funny movie. My emotions are super crazy though. I cried at one part during the movie. Alissa looked at me and asked, "Are you seriously crying?" I laughed as I told her yes. My emotions are nuts. I've been having as hard time dealing with Linda moving and my cousin's husband dying. I really don't want Linda to move. She is the hub of our family. I don't think we'll get together without her. It's upsetting. Also, I'm afraid she'll regret it and be so sad about moving back and not having their house anymore.

My heart hurts so much for my cousin Mindi. I can't imagine what she is going through right now. I'm so sad for her. I wish she wasn't having to deal with this.

Parker called me and asked to be picked up early. He said he had an earache. The funny thing is, that he only had like 25 minutes left at school. I decided to go pick him up, that way I could avoid the after school traffic. So, I picked him up, then we hurried over to Brinley's school to pick her up. On the way home, we picked Roger up from the gym.

Brinley came home from school with a headache. So, she took a nap as soon as she got home.

Parker's back started hurting tonight. He didn't feel good as he went to bed tonight. I feel bad for him.

Alissa and I watched the 13th episode of the 13th season of Ghost Adventures. It was the most entertaining episode yet. They all got attacked by a demon. It choked Zach. He cried, then tried to attack his friend. Another got got thrown, then fainted. It was a good one. I want to make a funny Ghost Adventures video where we do similar things.

Here is a short video of the funniest part of the episode.

Our computer got a virus and shut off on me. It was so sad. We took it to PC Laptops to get fixed.

I didn't know it was a virus when it shut down, but that's what they told us when we took it in. So, we are without a computer for a couple of days, while they fix it.

Since we were in Ogden, we went to the mall so I could exchange my Bath and Body Works lotion for the scent I actually want. They didn't have what I wanted in Logan. I went there 2 times and they just didn't have it. I knew they'd probably have more to chose from. I was right. I'm glad I finally got to exchange the stinky lotion for the good stuff.

I Fell Asleep While Writing This - January 21, 2019

Monday - January 21st

The kids didn't have school today! I love no school days. The news kept warning of a big winter snow storm coming our way. The kids and I had big hopes that it would snow so much that they'd have to give us a snow day, so the kids would get an extra day off. We weren't lucky enough for that, though. The storm managed to miss us completely. It was crazy! And not fair. Everywhere around us, got snow. Brigham city and Logan got a lot.

Kristy sent me pictures at 2pm ish to show all the snow they were getting. She was trying to shovel it, but it was still coming down. They had a ton of snow.

I crocheted a cute hair hat, then started working on.

I keep dozzing off while writtu ing this

Puzzle in Reverse - January 19, 2019

Saturday - January 19th

I love watching this video.  I think it is mesmerizing.

Also, Parker was being goofy and recorded himself.  I decided to share those few videos with you.

A Sad Day - January 15, 2019

Tuesday- January 15th

My cousin, Mindi's husband died tonight around 8pm. I feel so bad for her. It is so heart breaking. In the first part of November he started feeling sick. He was giving up blood and struggling to breath. They thought he had blood clots un his heart and lungs. They tried different treatments to get rid of the blood clots. Nothing worked. He needed to get to a hospital in San Diego Diego they would be able to operate on him and hopefully fix the problem. He almost died the day before they were able to fly him there. After he got there, they put him in a coma and gave him stuff to help his body be strong enough for surgery. They did the surgery on Tuesday. When they opened him up, they realized that he didn't have blood clots, he had cancerous tumors all over. They removed as many as they possibly could. They did everything they could to try to save him, but he ended up passing away a couple hours after the surgery. I just feel so bad for my cousin. Her youngest son is 2 years old. That's how old Roger was when his dad died. 

Chillaxin' - January 14, 2019

Monday - January 14th

Just relaxing and Chillin'.

Parker Scared Me - January 12, 2019

Saturday - January 12th

This is what it's like for me when I come home.  There is always somebody waiting and watching for their chance to try and scare me.

Our Haunted House - January 11, 2019

Friday - January 11th

Our vlog that we recorded today.
Alissa had a creepy experience last night.  After she told me about it, I looked on the security system and I could hear what she said had happened.  It was really creepy.  I was so scared and had a really hard time sleeping last night.

I loved the puzzle video I did at the end of the vlog above.  I think it looks cool, but it's annoying to have to scroll through my video to get to it.  So, I decided to post it on it's own.

Parker's New Beanie - January 10, 2019

Thursday - January 10th

Parker was so happy to get this merch from one of his favorite YouTubers.  I took these pictures of him before he left to school.

Happy Birthday Kristy! - January 9, 2019

Wednesday - January 9th

For Kristy's birthday, I put together a fun video to celebrate her.  It was fun and very time consuming going through all my pictures to find all the pictures I have of her.

My Scary Peeping Tom Story - January 8, 2019

Tuesday - January 8th

For my vlog today, I shared the story of the time I had a peeping tom.  I was 22 when this happened.

Snow! We Got Snow! - January 6, 2019

Sunday - January 6th

We woke up to a lot of snow. We've had very little snow this winter. Yesterday, there was no snow on the ground. Just a few patches on the grass where the sun doesn't shine.

I was so happy to see so much snow this morning.  I feel like it was a gift from my mom on her birthday.  I don't know how that works or if that could be true.  That's just the thought I had.  The snow made me happy on a day when I usually feel sad about my mom's passing.  I miss her soooooo much!

  Parker and I got ready and went out to play and shovel. When we went out, Daemion and his dad were out helping everybody shovel their driveways. They were at our neighbor's, then they headed to our house. Our neighbor came over shortly after. It was very awkward. I was trying to shovel the snow into a sledding hill. I told them what I was doing and they joined in on getting the snow to where I wanted my hill. Daemion's dad kept getting after Parker to get a shovel and start shoveling. Parker ignored him, which made him get after Parker more. He was also getting after Daemion. Anytime he stopped or sat down, he would get after him.

Then Parker grabbed the snow board we got from Linda. He set it on the ice in the driveway and tried to slide on it. Daemion's dad got after Parker for ruining the snow board. It was really awkward to have somebody at my house trying to parent my child in front of me. It was weird. I didn't care that Parker wasn't helping. He came out with the plan to play on the snowboard and help smooth out the sledding hill. I came out with the plan to shovel. We were both okay with that plan, but apparently our neighbor wasn't.  I went over and whispered to Parker that maybe to appease Daemion's dad, he should be nice and just help with the shoveling.  Parker's stubborn.  If I had asked him to help me shovel and let him know that's what he would be doing before we went out, then he would have helped.  It's hard for him to change plans willy nilly.  After I talked to him, he went in the backyard, so Daemion's dad wouldn't get after him anymore.  while he was back there, he started making a sledding hill by the trampoline and he dug out the doorway to the shed.  So, that was nice.

When our neighbor came over, she was fussy about shoveling. I heard her complaining a few times about how she is tired and doesn't want to do this.

I was happy to be out in the snow and happy to be shoveling and I really wouldn't have minded shoveling on my own. Their bad moods were not fun to be around. It just reminded me of how much I don't want to be like that. I like to be happy and have fun. I'm never going to be a serious parent. I'm never going to live up to other people's standards of parenting, so I'm not going to bother trying. I will parent the way I want and the way that feels right to me. I am so over trying to fit in and be what I think people would want me to be. I never want to live like that again. Luckily, I was never as extreme in doing that as some people I've seen.  I'm just not normal, and I'm okay with that.  I'm finally ready to stop being embarrassed by myself and just embrace my crazy weirdness.  I'm not a serious person.  I like things to be fun, bright, and happy.  I don't enjoy when things are too serious.  There are time when being serious is necessary and I'll be serious when those times come, but that's it.  I just keep seeing other parents and people around me doing things and behaving in ways that are purely for the purpose of keeping up appearances.  The way one of my neighbor's talks to her kids when she's outside and the way she talks to and tries to parent other's kids, feels so fake to me.  I don't know how she is in her own home, but I feel like she tries way to hard when she's outside of the home.  She is way too focused on being the perfect parent, that she probably never has fun.

I just want to be happy and have fun and love my kids and family. It's not fun to spend so much time getting after them. That takes a lot of energy and most of the time it's unnecessary.

I'm not sure if any of what I wrote makes a lot of sense.  I'm having a hard time explaining what it is that I'm feeling.  It was just a weird morning with those parents. I had fun in the snow, though. I'm just going to have fun and except the fact that I am different. I'm not like most parents and I have no desire to be like most parents. 

After our driveway was shoveled, the other 2 parents went on unhappily shoveling all of the driveways on the street.  I think that was nice of them, it was just awkward for me.  I really didn't want to be near them, so I went in the backyard to work on a snow hill back there.  That way we had our hill in the front yard to play on with neighbor's and a hill in the backyard to play on when we don't want lots of kiddos over.

After we shoveled, I wanted to relax, so I sat down and finished the puzzle I had started.  It was a nice relaxing day from that point on.  I still needed to finish my video for my vlog.  I went up to my room to do that.  I recorded myself sharing some interesting stories from my youth.  I only posted one of the stories on my vlog, since the other one would make my vlog too long.  I told the story of watching my neighbor's house get robbed and waving hi to the bad guys as they carried stuff out.  In 2014 the kiddos told that story and made a reenactment video of it.  I added that to our vlog also.  Here is our vlog for the day

And here are the pictures I took.

Just Hanging Out - January 5, 2019

Saturday - January 5th

I realized that we may have gotten carbon monoxide poisoning.  I called Linda to see if she thought we needed to get checked out.  She thought we'd be fine, but suggested if Alissa was still feeling sick, maybe we should go see a doctor.  After talking to her and thinking about things a little more, I got worried and thought I should go check on Alissa and make sure she was okay.  She was fine.  Just sleeping in.  When she came upstairs, I told her about the carbon monoxide.  We were talking about it and she was surprised and saying that that makes a lot of sense and helps her to understand how she's been feeling lately.  We talked about it for a while.  Alissa was looking online to learn more about it.  It made her start to worry that maybe she should get checked out.  She was thinking about how she had no memory of anything that happened on Monday night at work and how that felt so weird to her.  She couldn't figure out how she could have forgotten.  She also, couldn't remember Wednesday night.  It was crazy to put this all together and figure out that was what was going on.

I decided that maybe I could take Alissa to get looked at.  Both the clinics were closed, but I heard that there was an insta-care in Brigham city now and people say that's an affordable place to go.

I took Alissa to the insta-care and realized that the insta-care is way more expensive than either of the clinics we got to.  Also, they can't do anything there.  The best way to know if they need to treat it, is a blood test, but they couldn't do that there.  So, they wanted to do and EKG and give her oxygen for 15 minutes.  If the EKG was not right, then they'd sent us to the hospital.  I was so frustrated.  Alissa was feeling better than she had been and I was sure an EKG and giving her oxygen would cost us an arm and a leg (way more than having blood drawn would cost).  I was so frustrated.  I had misunderstood what an insta-care was.  I'll never make that mistake again.  We left and didn't have an EKG or oxygen.  We needed to get home, so I could drive Roger to work.

The whole experience at the insta-care, put me in a bad mood.  My bad mood rubbed off on Alissa.  we were both super fussy when we got home.  I drove Roger to work, came back home, and the kids and I decided to order ourselves some fast food.  I went to pick it up, but before I ordered mine, I decided not to get it, so I could go jogging before it got dark.  I got the kids their food, then I went jogging.

I came home from jogging and made the kids film the videos for our vlog with me.  After we did our vlog, I went to visit Roger at work.

When I got home from his work, I edited my video and posted it on YouTube.

Possible Carbon Monoxide Poisoning - January 4, 2019

Friday - January 4th

Yesterday evening, Parker smelled gas in the downstairs bathroom. When Roger went to check it out, he realized the pilot light was out on the water heater. The was water in places where it shouldn't be and the water heater was not doing so well. He turned the gas off to it, and we slept with the window open a crack to help air it out.

Roger called a plumber first thing in the morning. They came around 10:30am. They confirmed that the water heater is no good. That was a big fat bummer. Getting a new water heater was expensive!

They came back around 12:30 to take out the old one and install a new one. I'm glad we got the problem fixed. In the few days before we realized this, I kept getting headaches. Alissa and Parker had bothered complained about headaches. I thought Alissa and Parker's headache were from not drinking enough water. I just kept telling them to go drink more water. But now, I'm thinking those headaches may have been from the way heater letting of fumes. Maybe a little carbon monoxide. I don't know. I didn't have a headache yesterday, so that was nice. Brinley and Roger didn't complain about headaches. Brinley spends most of her time upstairs, in her room, far away from the water heater. Alissa's room is right next to it. She was the one who felt these worst. She had a headache and a fever on Thursday. She also complained of a stomach ache for a little bit.

Parker and I hang out in the family room a lot (also right next to it), me at the computer and Parker at the Xbox.

I just remembered, Roger did complain of a little headache and not feeling well on Thursday or Wednesday. I can't remember which. But we were both in the family room not feeling well.  Also, Butter's wasn't feeling well.  He had to go out to the bathroom 2 - 3 times each night.  He had diarrhea.  We couldn't figure out what was making him sick, we just knew he was sick.  And it was worse at night.  He only spends time close to the water heater area at night.  Forest sleeps upstairs and didn't spend a lot of time in the family room.

I think that is so scary. I'm really glad we got the problem fixed and we didn't die from carbon monoxide poisoning.

I was really lazy yesterday. I exercise on Wednesday and Thursday, but couldn't get myself to do anything yesterday. I sat and did my puzzle most of the day. When the kids came home, I took Alissa to work, then Brinley's friends came over to make a music video for my Friday vlog.

Roger was supposed to work overtime, which he was bummed about, but then they called it off. So, that was good. He wanted to go have a little pity party for himself because of all the money we had to spend on the water heater. He wanted to go get Chinese food and chillax out of the border for a little while. He wanted me to come with him, but I was determined to get a video done, since that's not new year's resolution. I told him I'd come if he would make a video with me, but he didn't want to, so he went alone.

Our music video turned out alright and we had fun making it. We had to hurry though, because it eased getting dark so fast. It was super cold outside! I was freezing. The girls didn't seem bothered by the weather at all. I miss that. The weather eased earlier for me top handle when I was younger. I get cold a lot more now that I'm older.

It took forever to edit the music video. I'm glad I started when I did, so I wasn't up past midnight working on it.

As I'm writing this, I'm thinking I need to look into if we should get checked out after dealing with carbon monoxide. I'm going to look into that when I'm done. Hopefully, it is something that will just leave our systems and we'll be good.

A Day in the Life of Jenny - January 2, 2019

Wednesday - January 2nd

Happy New Years! - January 1, 2019

Tuesday - January 1st

Today was a nice relaxing and lazy day.  My New Years Resolution is to vlog everyday.  I'm calling it 'the year of the vlog'.  So, every night, I will be on the computer editing videos.  Hopefully this will go well and I can keep this up.

So, I had a really hard time staying awake last night.  We didn't go anywhere since Alissa had to work and we needed to be available to pick her up when she was done.  She didn't know how late she'd be.  Luckily, she wasn't too late.  She got off work at 8:30 ish.  Brinley's friend Khloe came and spent the night.  Brinley and her had fun.  I feel bad that I wasn't more fun.  I ended up having a headache.  I made Roger go outside and walk with me.  I was hoping going out for a walk/jog would help to get rid of my headache, but it didn't.  It was way too cold outside and there was ice everywhere, which made it impossible to jog and difficult to even walk.  So, we walked around Meadow Park twice, then came inside.

I felt bad about gaining weight in October and November (because of some yucky medication I took to get rid of nail fungus), so I decided to try taking Phentermine again.  I took it during the first part of 2017 and it helped me lose a lot of weight.  I started taking it this week, but I don't think I will keep taking it.  This time round, I end up with a headache if I'm not active enough.  Which I think would be helpful in keeping me active, but it's a pain in the behind to deal with a headache if I'm not successful.  Yesterday, I woke up and did an Insanity video.  That's a good and hard workout, but apparently, that wasn't good enough.  I think I have to exercise morning and night to keep the headache away.  I don't know.  I'm trying to decide if I'm okay dealing with that or not.  Also, I'm thinking maybe this medicine is too dangerous.  Maybe I've become allergic to it or something.  I don't know.  I can't decide what I'm going to do.  I didn't take it this morning, since I planned on being lazy all day.  I'm not sure if I'll take it tomorrow or not.  I haven't decided yet.  Anyway, that's why I had a headache yesterday.

I feel bad that I was dealing with a headache and not able to be more fun.  Normally, we run around sitting on the furniture and doing other things, yelling, "I was the last person to do....... in 2018".  After we've done everything we can think of in the house, it usually turns into, "I was the last person to pull this persons hair (or something like that) in 2018"  We don't hurt each other.  It's just fun and we aren't rough with each other.  It's just a funny stupid thing we do.  Then after midnight, we start all over again, yelling, "I was the first person to...... in 2019"

At the start of the night I had energy and I told the kids we should think of something funny to be doing at midnight, like I thought I would jump rope, so I could say I jumped into 2019.  But, that wasn't funny enough, so I told everybody to brainstorm and come up with something funny. Then I got super tired and I kept thinking maybe I will sleep into the new year.  I forced myself to stay awake for the kiddos.  Roger was getting really tired also.  He was frustrated because he was trying to stay awake all night and get back to his work schedule, since he had to work tonight.  

When the new year hit, Parker was asleep.  He always struggles to stay awake on New Years Eve.  Khloe and Brinley came into the living room and they were ready.  They had a funny idea.  They were acting like some of their favorite YouTubers and they were "Bra ing" into the new year.  It's like they were calling each other bro, but with more of an ahh sound instead of an ohh sound.  Anyway, it was funny.  I'm glad they thought of something funny.

Alissa and I had been sitting in the living room watching a New Years Eve thing, waiting for the count down.  We yelled for everybody when it was time to count down.  Brinley and Khloe came in doing their funny thing and Roger came upstairs to join us and give me my New Years kiss.  We counted down, then the kids opened the door and yelled, "Happy New Year.  We opened the blinds to see if we could watch any of the fireworks that people were lighting.  We couldn't see much.  Earlier, when Roger and I had gone walking, we saw some fireworks that were being lit at the end of the street.  But we couldn't see the ones lit at midnight.

It was a pretty good night, even though I had a headache and I was tired.

This morning, I woke up and recorded a little with Khloe and Brinley, then I fixed me some cereal and came down to the family room to watch some TV with Roger.  We watched 'America in Color'.  That's a really interesting and fun show.  I started to fall asleep after a while, so Roger suggested we go up to our room and take a nap.  I liked that idea, so that's what we did.  I slept until 1:30pm and Roger slept until 2:00pm.  It was nice.  I woke Alissa up after that.  She had been in been all day and hadn't woken up yet.  She was surprised when I told her what time it was.  She had planned to wake up earlier, so she could get her laundry washed, since she had to work.  So, we had to quick wash her work clothes, so they would be ready in time.

After I took Alissa to work, Roger asked if I wanted to go do something today.  I said  I did, so we got ready and headed to Logan.  We decided to go to The firehouse Pizzeria.  I skipped dinner and went straight to dessert. Normally I order a meal, then I'm too full to get dessert.  They have a really yummy dessert there, called a Fuzookie.  I love it so much, but rarely get it.  This time I was smart. Lol!  Roger ordered a calzone.  It was all yummy.  After that, we went to the mall to exchange the lotion I bought at Bath and Bodyworks.  They had a really good deal before Christmas, but they didn't have the scent I wanted.  So, the lady suggested that I buy a different scent, then come exchange it, after Christmas, for the scent I want.  When we went to exchange it, they still didn't have the scent I wanted.  That was a bummer.  I think we will have to go to the Ogden mall, to make this work.  We also made a stop at Walmart to buy some cleaning supplies, then we headed home.

We stopped at Alissa'a work to remind her she needed to get off work early, since Roger had to go to work.  She said she would get off at 8:30.  When we headed home, we passed the Christmas light display that the city does.  We stopped to watch for a little bit.  I felt bad enjoying the show with out the kiddos, so we decided to come back at 8:30 when we get Alissa and enjoy the light show then.

We went back at 8:30 with Parker and Brinley.  Alissa called us right after we parked and said she was out of work and walking.  We told her where we were and she joined us.  The light show was really good.  They have added a lot of lights to their display since they started doing this and it's a lot of fun to watch.

Here is the Vlog that I made and posted tonight.

I realized that I hadn't taken any pictures of the decorating I had done after I got home from Linda's.  She gave me lots of fun arts and crafty stuff and things for decorating.  I was so excited to decorate.  Here are the pictures of what I did.